I feel so unbearably lost, and I can't even explain it. It's this desperation deep in my chest. Almost a lack of hope. It's painful and suffocating like pressure on my heart. I'm neglecting IM windows, and as idiotic as it sounds, I feel so awful. Because I love the people I talk to so desperately, and I don't want them to think I'm ignoring them when it's really just the other 10 people I'm talking to I have to post to. It's just... wow. I can't explain it. I'm PMSing so hardcore and my best friend was a bitch and I'm so glad that's over now.. yet I feel so strangely alone. I'm lost and I don't know why.